let's talk tired.

How do you define exhaustion?  It probably depends on what you do.  Maybe your eyes get exhausted because you look at a computer screen all day, maybe your brain gets exhausted because you are crunching numbers, or maybe your body is exhausted because you work construction.  And if you're a Mom?  That's a new form of exhaustion: being a mom.  And so how do I define tired?  Here goes... tired is setting 4 alarms and snoozing them all... for an hour.  Tired is not being able to speak in moments... and the words you actually can utter come out backwards.  Tired is being able to drink multiple cups of coffee in the day... and even one at night.. and still pass out with no problem.  Tired is leaving your house in a disheveled mess.  Tired is forgetting why you walked into the room.  Tired is finding a box of cereal in the fridge, or putting something that needs to be refrigerated in the sink.  Tired is having no clue what day of the week it is.  Tired is forgetting how to spell simple words -- have you ever had to stop and think how to spell 'who'?  Tired is having no clue what day of the week it is. Tired is repeating yourself.  Tired is thinking you always hear a baby crying (or is that just being a mom?)  Tired is sitting on the couch, putting on some trashy reality tv and zoning out.  The exhaustion you face as a mom is real.  At times it's almost unsafe... and all the time it's hard.  Really, really hard.  But, I'd rather be so exhausted I can't think, than imagine life without Cora.  She has changed my world forever.  She has turned it upside down, sideways and around.  She has given me new purpose.  And I'd do anything for her... including facing sleepless nights for the forseeable future.  She's my life now, and that's all that matters.  Even if it is a tiring life.  Also, I should mention,  being tired makes you emotional.  So if you're welling up while reading this, you're probably a tired mama... or just a mama who gets it.

this is not a rarity